Welcome

Welcome to my world. I only have one purpose here - to serve you well. This is my heart and soul's intention. This is why this blog exists. If you are facing a life threatening or chronic illness like AIDS, I would love to be able to serve you well. If you are seeking enlightenment and would like to walk the spiritual journey together, I would love to be able to serve you well. The purpose of life is to serve. When we serve, we make others happier and healthier. When we serve we make ourselves happier and healthier.

In my adult life, there have been two threads that have shaped who I am - AIDS and the Divine. 

I have always experienced the Divine as the source of everything, that which animates us and binds us together as one. 

In early 1984, before there was even a test for HIV, I was diagnosed with what was written in my medical charts as "gay lymph node syndrome". I was a Musical Theater student at San Francisco State University, minoring in Comparative Religions. My doctor told me, "I have good news and bad news for you. The bad news is you seem to have what the other guys in San Francisco and New York have. The good news is the guys here in San Francisco don't seem to be dying as fast." That was right around my twenty-third birthday. It seemed clear that if something didn't change, I would not live to see thirty. A few months later, HIV was discovered as the cause of AIDS, and to no one's surprise, when I was tested, it came back HIV+.

At the same time, I met my first spiritual teacher, a channel named Betty Bethards. She was known as "The Dream Lady", because she taught us to use the symbology of our dreams for spiritual guidance. She channeled a group of saints and holy beings who were here to serve Mother Earth. She was also known as "The Common Sense Guru". Her down to Earth teaching style, humor and love won me over. She taught us that God provides three free gifts to everyone - meditation, affirmation, and our dreams. 

I was also introduced to The Course in Miracles (through my mom of all people), Marianne Williamson, and Louise Hay. 

So, when I got my diagnosis, after a couple of days in a surreal fog, wondering what would become of me, I realized that I had a lot of tools in my spiritual tool belt. "Well," I thought, "I guess this is where the rubber meets the road. Time to put what I know to the test." 

That's where this journey began. Over the last nearly thirty years, it has been quite a roller coaster. I have studied with more than a dozen spiritual teachers and masters since. I almost gave up and laid down to die in the early nineties and without the love and support of my teachers Amritam and Oceana, I am sure I would have.  Again, in 1996, I was dying in a hospital in Honolulu and again had to make a very deep choice to stay here. With love and support from my spiritual community, I fought my way back to health. In 1997, along with my spiritual practice, I began taking the newly discovered combination therapy for HIV. Through a combination of cutting edge medicine and spiritual practice, my health was stabilized and over the years has continued to improve. I no longer live with the constant threat of dying of AIDS, and am living in the question, "Can spiritual practice and medicine together actually cure me?"

In 2006, I met Dr. and Master Zhi Gang Sha. He came to the Unity Church of Hawaii where I was practicing massage and energy work, and I witnessed him offer a powerful healing blessing for a woman who could barely walk. She put her cane aside and through bursts of tears, walked freely up and down the aisle of the church. I knew that I had found the man who could teach me how to be the kind of healer I wanted to be. In the years since, traveling with Master Sha, I have literally seen people going blind get their eyesight back, people going deaf have their hearing restored, and watched breast cancer shrink in front of my eyes.  

When Master Sha described his vision of 400 physical temples and 400 teacher/healers to attend them, both I and my partner Robert knew that we had found the life purpose we knew had been waiting for us. After several years of intense study and purification, we were accepted as Divine Channels and Worldwide Representatives of Master Sha.

This site is the chronicle of the ongoing journey. It isn't an easy one, but it is never boring!

Whether you are healing or seeking, I invite you to join me for laughs, cries, breakthroughs, breakdowns, lessons learned, lessons to be learned, healing and upliftment. I promise you hard-earned wisdom, honest exploration, all the love I have to offer, and lots of practical techniques you can apply to heal and uplift your soul. Let the journey begin.